Monday, December 18, 2006

OFF- Course// What Correction

The title seems to be inetersting after the one below!
Its an instersting Irony..

I usually complaint about not liking people who are too negative! But here , Today I find my OWN self in a complete negative spiral...
and No.. Its not like the usual excuse, that i dunno why
I do..
But that is where the interesting challenge comes in!!
Yeah the Simple Bold fails to Highlight the importance of the Pain and pleasure that Knowing can bring!!

Knowledge can be power, but hey.. dont forget.. the same when viewed in light of " Ignorance is bliss"..its pretty different

I am still trying to locate innovative ways to Re-boot my self...
well am at a little loss!!

"every decision is taken at the moment , with the knowledge in THAT moment...

and the apprehension of the uncertain future combined with the current knowledge of the In-ability to completely Un-do past decisions is is way too much to bear at times"


Course Correction

I Just downloaded, a copy of this Blog as a PDF.
Something I wanted to do!
Not that it is already a big book, But just wanted to, after its Year was completed.

Today Some course correction was initiated. I started with a report on Mutual Funds, something whcih was being postponed for a long time.
I started it!
( yes, as a good friend of mine MJ also says, " Initiation of something , anything, is a BIG task, Not to Unmnetion the next bigger is towards the end)

Even though I was not exactly motivated by the Anon quote in Times of India today," I you want to feel richer, count all that you h ave, which money cannot Buy"....
I was going thru an old diary and this blog of mine...
I realised, How much change has actually caught on in my own life.

All thru' when I kep thinking that lifes not moving.. It was zipping by.

Like "N" says.."time aur Paisa nikalna padta hai "( you have to take out money and time for anything with a special effort)

So I sat late, Initiating the Project and hence this entry, so late at Sunday Night.
Overlooking the "as always" plans to go for a ealry morning JOG!

But i have learnt something, right now, For real happiness, I need to stretch doing what I really like and hence find both.. what I like and how to remain and regain the "state of Happiness"

err.. I just hope I am not blabbing at this hour in the night!!
Whatever the case, some course correction is important in all's lives!!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006


Life's Meanings keep changing for all.. with time..
What It is ... has inspred,and made to perspire Plenty!!

currently, I think its like a whole wide fertile universe.. for us to go out do anything..
just about anything...
Strangely...we meet people, with VIEWS.. formed by seeing thier own ways and routes in the HUGE POTENT Universe..
and get biased maybe..
Some poeple get together at one place, in terms of their views and form civililazitons anywhere and everywhere in this Universe...

they settle with thoughts and opnions...!!

Till someone who is unahppy with a few things, tries walking out ..

Ususally they discover another such civilisation... and go there and stay there for good or for some time....

Some .. when they move out, find that more than one such civilizations.. exist..and become confused... where to go!!

and weigh and usually end up in one of the few they see..
and settle...

Some Rare ones, have a little more energy, and climb up a huge mountain.. to try and SEE from the TOP..

some of these manage to see one or two more..

And some end up realising that wait... I dont want to live in these civilizations...
They Just sit there!!!

They think they wan to detach and find happiness!!

Then there are the Rare ones....

who know about this prime Wisdom...already..
that the open blank areas they see in the huge wide POTENT universe .. the barren Space.. is for THEM..
To Do JUST about anything...
They need to set their TARGETS!!!
What they want to build there!!!a civilization...? or a Monument.. for people to come and marvel.. or a Palace to live in!!!

Its upto YOU

weather you want to setlle with thoughts/ structures in live...
or you WANT some thing else..

The only deciding factor which pushes people... real hard to climb mountains and create civilizations or monuments or palaces... is the PAIN..
yes the PAIN!!!
What is your tolerance thresh-hold of anything...
makes you move..
it creates a you
and you create a didturbance in the Universe..
and mind you
its only YOU and YOU alone who defines your own pain standards...
so go ahead... decide ..
what are you happy with
and what pains you more..
GO on CLIMB HIGHER and discover.. more.. more and seeWHAT LIES AROUND in the potent universe

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

138th "The Vagina Monologues"

20The November 2006, 7PM; Dadar, Mumbai India

Cast: Dolly Thakore, Avantika Akerkar, Jayati Bhatia, Sonali Sachdev, Mahabanoo Mody-Kotwal

Yes; Some of the people passing this entry may feel strange ( a Simple Strage) to see and entry about this Play from a guy!

( For the Un-initiated about it, please look up the title or click on it)

The Supposed "BOLD" was a very interestig One hour spent!
Specially, I feel its definately a must wacth for all the mortals having one ( yeah I am talking about the Vagina.. )

With a lot of Panache the subject of The VAGINA , which...........................


Sunday, October 29, 2006


Well one of the meanings says :(Rejuvenate)
"Return to life; get or give new life or energy"
I have been dormant on this CHANGE Blog for long!

Now i am not trying to prove wrong "Change is permanent theory"!!
and now that i recall the snapshot of mind while publishing my last post I see SEA Change!
its diffucult to put in words and a single post.. but so much has changed in my life!
my mind
and perception..

So returning to rejuvenation, after returning from home.
On the way back from Home to Mumbai ( home2 ??) I was absorbing and understanding the BASIC need.... of Drastic change is so important for rejunivating of Everything ( starting from self)
It was such a tingling experiance for my senses to see and experiance MY WORLD as it used to be a few ( Read 8-9) years ago!

It tells you so well from where and By HOW MUCH have you moved.
It is an experiance to be felt! and no words can explain.

(Its like a mid project review, when the team suddenly realises.. after reading THOSE prelimenary docs... duh!!.. WE NEED COURSE correctiion..:P... )

Here i declare the initiation of course correction .....
wish me luck!!

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Who rules

This culmines from a lots of things and happenings!
Pushed by Neha and her post
Dont know how her post will affect this one.. lets see!!
So.. Who rules??

Not the county or the country or state or jazz..
no not even you company or in your famili..
WHO rules YOU!!!???

Yeah its easy to say.. I rule myself!!
But DO you??

Changes you?
Your Beliefs?
Your Thoughts?
Your desires?
Your LIkes???
Your Di-likes??

All of them ?

No I am not.
its your Surrounding??
The people..??
The Media that influences your thoughts??

This POst talked about why we cannot change!!
Where as here I am questioning.. the

your thoughts, Views and Perceptions are so dependent on Others?
and Then they BUILD on themselves
( AS in what you agree to now, because of something or someone.. changes.. how you view the next thing..SO..>!)

But the core issue is..You Really CAn control yorself..
But you need to be aware!!.. a little more..
More perceptual about what your surroudning and your own mind!

There are times when we actually loose track...
and flow effortlessly in a direction.. which after some times is not quite happy..
es.. this post is just to make you re-THINK
of your real dreams and desires and why are they really there...
are they because of you, yourself..
or because of thing you think you want to achieve.. that you think will give you ahppineess ( or something)

Or you think you will become like someone.... when you behave like that.. because you... you think that is what everyones likes..
Question yourself..!!
re-confgure your own self!!

Saturday, July 22, 2006

What is happening

So much has happened, but you think of it, in to-to, it seems just about nothing! The Mumbai blasts from a mumbaikar’s point are quite a shake! But from a marco world view, where huge strikes in Lebanon, Iraq and more or less just about everywhere in the world, you feel it has become a commonplace!
People think!
But really a very few selected whom have read, experienced and lived through a lot of CHANGE, or study… the culture of change can even Comprehend it.
People talk about the “Lull before the storm”

But I believe there is something called the slow movement, causing the HUGE change, which usually goes un-noticed by narrow-versioned!

The slow and steady movements of the tectonic (earth) plates has re-structured earth looks today.

Darwin’s Evolution if studied is a KLASS case!

From a point of view of an anthropologist (Desmond Morris), it is amazing to comprehend how and why we are the way we are!

Reading about the change in our Socio-Industrial-Political structure from eyes of futurist Alvin and Heidi Toffler, you can come to realize about what is change.

But all that is not the point of this post!
I am trying to understand about this huge change on the anvil and slowly happening under our feet in this world!

I suppose the newly found POWER/ freedom and energy of being connected / being online will bring about a new breed of human beings , not just culture and polity and psyche

Thursday, July 20, 2006


You have to visit tell me if you want to join.

Saturday, July 15, 2006


Experience is not what happens to a man; it is what a man does with what happens to him

Saturday, July 01, 2006


Some things you learn good by experiance!

I am sure we all say and have heard a lot of time
"try try till u succeed"
Well today i was up against some interestingly tough people!
people who have a reputation of being oh! unhandleable!

But I now believe...
try try try till you hit a big wall!
buy dont stop
hit it again and again
if u have no luck
then wait
try to slowly push it!
try slooooowly
ok the look here and there at the edges!!
look for some secret handles.. ( a lot of people have those special buttons...)
try some permutations and combinations
but try
..and still if there no success at all!!
at all!!
take a few steps back....
and check

you may have some more intersting routes in life!!


Friday, June 23, 2006

The Suitable Mate ( have deviated initially)

For a long time this Change blog has been throwing the Social topic to the backburner!
After reading Sanjay's entry and his reference enteries so put as (1,2), and with the ongoing flux in my life, it seems my thoughts will spill on this blog too.

Supressing my desires to start from Desmond Morris' View of The Naked Ape Trioligy and likes I will come straight to Drastic changes which are very visible all around. Not to leave the fact how Indian Socio-View is bursting at its seams and coming out.
No its not just about DPS RKpuram delhi cock sucking MMS( or the zillions of its equivalents available on demand), or mildly outrageous T-shirts(Must see link) being printed( ya i read about in a BT's article last fortnight, the article showing a bikini and George Bush, with pointers saying Good Bush Bad Bush)...
Its a Big Change at very basic levels which is happening (has already gone a long way).

The Change in the basic thought patterns.
The Change in the percetion of everything.

Religion ( ya, talk about sikhs without turbans, or short-cuts rituals... havent you heard those mantra CD's that are to be enchnated during (m)any religius ceremony?)

Family Structure ( not just joint-nuclear family debate, but the basic Powershift( Alvin Toffler) between Matriach / Patriach familiy and now the Ethics fron fron the Nanny ..leading to nanniarch? structure of the family)

The avaialbility of knowledge much earlier and much faster has drastically CHANGED so much, that at times it is difficult to comprehend.

The Suitable Mate and the search for him/her in this fast evolving socio-structure (blitzkrieg) is a different Ball Game.

My views roll back and forth between Love vs Arranged ( at least now i am thinking about it, as against a year back, when I had no faith in the institution itself)... Dont know why they tend to tilt some times towards arranged.

May take


- you know him/her ( but how much can you really know the other person and in how much time, when you and him/her are also constantly changing so much each day)

- LOVE ( well, very tricky to comment on this...I have not been able to define/ comprehend)

- Understand from beforehand very well, so better compatibility ( yeah? how many friends, relatives( Parent?) have to much later had highly argumentative difference of opinion... if none... then WOW)

- ( blanked out) help me here please!


- Families know each other ( So what?, not the intended bride / groom. How much are the in sync with their families, is a question is the first place)

- Same / similar background, in terms of social ( what ? ) / financial ( ya have you seen how that changes witout notice) stature!)

Ok I have not even initiated other topics of

- Sex / Sexual orientation / experianed un experianed and its varied perception among the sexes and the ages

- Cooking ( Cooking??? ) with no time/ eat out and MTR ??

I am looking at views of everyone here!

Coz my belief is that "the Human Animal" has morphed so much socially and re-structed into verry different sets of social structure.

Living lives in their own Big/ small Niches / compartmentalised ( yeah in apartments), least bothered about their neighbours / parents (??) / and likes.
With so much change in the social structures, the definations and fuctions of SOCIAL institutions need to ( well they are automatically) modified!!

What say???

Thursday, June 15, 2006


The ultimate agency that predetermines the course of events (often personified as a woman)

An event (or a course of events) that will inevitably happen in the future

Your overall circumstances or condition in life (including everything that happens to you)

Decree or designate beforehand

Yes I know its perpetual chicken and egg!
You make your fate Vs. It’s all predestined

But question to you all...
Can you?
Can you completely Change your future?

You decide one day... what the hell, I want to do that... any bizarre desire...
Leave everything... travel far and wide experience the un-experienced.
Break the monotony of LIFE... of Society...

Current question troubling me.... CAN I??

Monday, June 12, 2006

Brain works

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

Thursday, June 01, 2006


I know it is a very controversial!



Ledge= A projecting ridge on a mountain or submerged under water/ Some thing Visible!

Ion= A particle that is electrically charged (positive or negative); an atom or molecule or group that has lost or gained one or more electrons/ Something NOT visible


NO, I am not a Athiest, I am A firm believer of MY RELIGION..( ...dont ask me what)

My thoughts were triggered in a party when some mentioned something about religion and My though thread went in a tangent:

If you take up IDEALISM approach to social structure, Implying our belief systems are goverened by what we see and hear and are told.

My belief about what is religion:
Some ONE ( gOD? human ) intiated pseudo-facts about GOD(like)s!

Who had Abilities out of the nornal human scope!

in all domains.. physical, emotional, meta-anything!

All these were made / told / re-told for various purposes.

- to explain the then un-explianed

- to create abstract nouns.. Fath.. and allied.

.. the list can on on...

But the main FOCUS of what i believe relision wanted to address, got lost..
the main focus being to

- CONTAIN HUMAN BEINGS MIND( from flowing in to tengents which were then not considered correct)


.. and list goes on..

All these got lost..
got lost coz

THEY( here they is GOD(LIKE) beings or their harbingers)

all forgot
- that THEY too were humans!!
- THAT power currupts!

Many tried..

every try got a different name/ a different religion..

Minute flways of one caused futher complications due to potential and later evident CONFLICTS

and LO!!
here we are a huge huge bunch.. Just like the MONKEY story I told earlier!!

so what is religion to you?? tell me..

Saturday, May 27, 2006

KNOWN Theori

.Murphy's Original Law

If there are two or more ways to do something, and one of those ways can result in a catastrophe, then someone will do it.

Murphy's Law
If anything can go wrong -- it will.

Murphy's First Corollary
Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.

Murphy's Second
CorollaryIt is impossible to make anything foolproof because fools are so ingenious.

Quantized Revision of Murphy's Law
Everything goes wrong all at once.

Murphy's ConstantMatter will be damaged in direct proportion to its value.

The Murphy PhilosophySmile... tomorrow will be worse.

Monday, May 22, 2006


Dr. Madan Kataria

It is a matter of practice and belief. There is a link between mind and body. If you are depressed in the mind, your body is depressed and if you move your body your mind moves: you feel good. This is called motion creates emotions.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Be careful what you ask for, it will(not may) come true

(back from hi-burrr-nation)
Ok here goes another one of my understanding of ... wel..

Most of us have said this

"Be careful what you ask for it might just come true"

But fact is , whatever you ask for...wish for..(think or even say) is sent out in the universe as a energy a sound wave.

The universe is like fertile land, with lots of energy waiting to be used/ comsumed / re-created/ change/ take forms...
Whatever you give out to this system, it starts manifesting to try and create !( YA YA it does have a parallel with the KARMA theory)

BUT wait... ( if you thought it was that simple)
Its not that simple... that you say i wan $ 100K and Poof.. there you have it... no ( its fertile i said.. not a genie)

There are other contraints..
  • Your intention needs to be Firm and Focused
  • Any deviations gives out confusing signals... can put you in trouble
  • if you wish desire for contradisting things... tehe universe will start manifesting something ELSE..
  • And AGAIN.. you need to be carefull what you ask for .. and what ALL you keep asking for.If you see this merc, and yearn and swoon and wish you had it( even say.. i would do just about anything for it) , mind you..dont be surprised.. to witness an opportunity to DO something ( that you never dream to) but leading to something... leading to your MERC
  • Also If you wish for something....UNDERSTAND that the universe starts changing your future/ surroudings/ environment accordingly....
  • THIS one is important so let me are working as an executive in an organization, where you see the MD of the company YEILD a lot of power, and you swoon and desire, everytime you see him, that you should become one. Everytime .. yes EVERYTIME you say that energise that feeling....BUT dont forget.. if you are not lined up/ or geared to become so...THE UNIVERSE will start pushing you into situations where YOU havve to ATTAIN / LEARN certain qualities (features/habits..etc)to help you become a CEO. ( EVER wondered.. WHY the HELL do I ALWAYS get into such a troublesome and you might just be able to REALISE... You need to learn something from this achive something you desired)


  1. Ever wondered, why life/universe puts you again and again in the same/similar situation or with a similar type of personality to deal with!!! RE_THINK.. yoiu better learn what the UNIVERSE is trying to chnage in you.. to help you GET there SOONER
  2. IT is dependent on YOU. The stronger and more focussed is your desire and will, the faster to change and adapt to what the universe is trying to help you to IT, the better it is for you.
  4. BUT they also attract similar energies..Remember good things happen to good people more often than you realise.
( Kindly overlook the spelleing mistakes)

Saturday, April 22, 2006


ooops... where did this post go!!
I think someone has deleted it delibrately...

Friday, April 14, 2006

( C H A N G E )

( after so many different posts which came and went away , I am writing a little about change)
Do you know how much we change everyday!! And how much we potentially can.. Just a few fates

  • Our body PHYSICALLY changes completely within a span of 10 days.( how, You may Ask?) The Atoms quantitative each and every cell of our body ranging from our blood cells, skin cells..Even our Bones CHANGE completely in a month. Which means , not only do they die and regeneraqte in their respective cycles, the material quantitative them is exchanged / changed with the outside world.
  • ( Can you absorb the above line, its pretty awe striking)
  • WHO are you?.. You have completely changed in a span of a month time.. ( Your hand.. Wash part of something/ someone else last onto)
  • My belief about The Flux of our thoughts has been published here and here!

( Though this may have come in another entry, but related)

a SINGLE though in our mind.. POTENTAILLY ( and does so physically everyday) Creates a chemical.. physically create and helps us/ makes us performal further physical and emotional actions..

Each though, which is affected by a ziallion interelated things..chemically ( physically) generates a hormone ( chemical entity), which makes up Do whatever!!

This is the power of our MIND!

( and we talk of energy creating matter)

Wednesday, March 29, 2006


Physically, more than 60 % of the inputs to the human brain are not processed. Implying that we have the inputs coming (inputs of voices/ any sound, visions/ everything that can be seen, may or may not be noticed, touch/ any thing that can be felt hands, feet, anywhere)from all our senses!

This is because if our brain does not filter, we will go mad trying to process all the inputs and would not be able to concentrate.

- Have you ever remembered you surrounding voices /details during an exam / high concentration time/experience
- People with hearing aids have problems in listening as the device amplifies everything
- And so on

Continuation of the 3D view
Now the same happens on a mental level too. We categorize everything /( and unluckily everyone also)
- That type of person
- Good food
- Most of the generic / non generic adjectives
- Sweet orange.

In order to avoid having to categorize things/people every time, we put them in predefined boxes.
(Interesting part)
What we usually fail to realize we end up associating a lot of other things of the tag. (Also see Inheritance in programming languages, Subset theory.. et al)

Example, when you say sweet orange, what you refer to as sweet could be something, but I perceive sweet as orange and unluckily end up associating a lot of the other properties on the Orange!
The same goes for people
We end up ( usually) categorizing people, good/ bad/sweet /humorous/ Scheming / simple/ complex, list goes on.
These so called adjectives usually have a real reference, linkages, connection!

When I say dustbin, you actually see a dustbin (whatever you relate to or have a definition of dustbin)

Same goes for people, when I say a sweet girl, you r association of a sweet girl conjures up a real/ imaginary image of a sweet girl. And you expect the sweet girl in discussion to be same/ have ALL( yes expect ALL) the qualities of the Sweet girl in your MIND

Carefully now see the relation.
We typecast people, usually. And then end up having certain other expectations, which are inherited, from the parent reference!

Views counterviews? Please

Friday, March 24, 2006

Experience it

Instead of being concerned with fitting every new experience into a preconceived category, put your energy into living the experience itself. Instead of using your thoughts to place a judgment on each thing that comes your way, put your energy into being more fully aware of it all.

How many things do you miss completely because you think you already know what you're looking at? How many new concepts do you fail to grasp because you're trying to fit them into concepts you already have?

If your life seems to be stuck in one place, the most likely reason is that your thoughts are preventing anything new from coming into your awareness. Relax your need to judge and to analyze, and you'll glimpse the abundant richness that is always available to you.

Let go of the need to know it all, and you'll begin to experience more and more. Move beyond the desire to always prove that you're right, and your eyes will open to profound truths.

What has it ever gained anyone to be cynical and closed minded? Choose instead to open your mind, to open your eyes to the astounding, ever-increasing richness of what is.

Let yourself out of the prison that your ego keeps trying to build. There's a big, beautiful universe right here and now that's filled with value for you to live.

~ Ralph Marston ~

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Holistic View (three dimensional Holographic life theory)

(I am sure some of who know me were looking forward for this post)

I view my life as this Holographic Three Dimensional Puzzle
In fact now that I put my mind to it, it can be considered as a Multi-Dimensional Holographic puzzle,

Let me detail

From the time when we are born, we have a certain view of things:

We have our niche, our parents, and siblings, Family!
We have our own set of opinions, But these Initially (the first) set of opinions are Empirical/ Tenets.
These come from views of our near and dear ones, whom we consider as the only source of thoughts. What is right or wrong?

Not just that,but what is what.

ON the BASIS of these Views / opinions. We form our OWN set of opinions.
(Now carefully understand)

Each of these VIEWS, forms the basis of how we VIEW/ PERCEIVE everything that comes our way.
THESE views are HOLOGRAPHIC in nature...Because as and when we change our position, we understand and get a new meaning to the same views.

As and example. You must have heard." by the time the son realizes what his father says was right. He already has a son who thinks he is wrong" Its the same views... but with change of time, age the perception changes

Just like a Hologram. With the change in angle of view. it Changes..

Now comes the build up

A we grow, the dimensions change, the number of people who influence us increase.
Our Bonding levels change

From Our Mother or Father, who were supposed to be our closest, understood us best Once, are replaced, by others. Siblings, best friend(s).. Opposite sex friend (who usually complements, your opposite sex parent)

But wait. It’s not that simple..
There is much more
We also had our views...
Now we have more views. More perceptions...
But these are not perceived/ learned by us as they are..Or as expressed by the owners of these new views..viz new friends.... etc
We view them through the biased glasses of our current views...
GIVING new dimensions to our current set of holographic views.
This build-up continues.
In between there are other factors /distractions that keep coming in
Opposite sex exploration.
More relationships
All this while ..Our mind continuously keeps building on the 3D Views..
This is the basic theory ..
Digest it..

Tuesday, March 07, 2006


The word has various implications..
But what happens when u are de-clothed, in public....
You blush!
You are afraid of being seen as you are!
You try to hide..
But feel...
Others too maybe like you... on the inside.. but they hush
and you blush

Its a very helpless situation.
(though can be a great learning curve)

If you imagine yourself being Naked
all you facades being foced down
You discover who you really are from within.
Not just in the physical sense
( Though if you view yourself complete naked infront of a mirror for long enough, i am definate you would discover a loyt about how you really look..stuff which you never knew , maybe. )

It is a difficult situation to be in ..though,
to be completely discovered...
with all your uniformities and deformities being looked at and disected!

God help!
Shame is a psychological condition and a form of religious, political, judicial, and social control consisting of ideas, emotional states, physiological states and a set of behaviors, induced by the consciousness or awareness of dishonor, disgrace, or condemnation. Genuine shame is associated with genuine dishonor, disgrace, or condemnation. False shame is associated with false condemnation as in the double-bind form of false shaming; "he brought what we did to him upon himself". Therapist John Bradshaw calls shame the "emotion that lets us know we are finite

Monday, March 06, 2006

Like a prayer

Are our lives pre-destined or does free will exist? Astrologer Harsh Khiraiya explores
Many a times we hear of miracles. People escape from accidents. There are sole survivors in plane wrecks. Some patients survive complicated and tedious operations. Were they fated to survive? Or was there any other force that saved them? We still debate as to whether there is free will or is everything pre - destined? Is our life completely pre-planned or can we do something about it? Astrology is a divine craft that predicts the life patterns of individuals with uncanny precision. It draws up your fate, destiny and success. But is there something beyond astrology that can change your fate ?

The Supernatural

A serious student of astrology is always taught that there is 80 per cent fate and 20 per cent free will. Now let us concentrate upon this 20 per cent free will. In this context it means the power of curses, blessings and prayers. The three mentioned factors can and do change our lives.


If we browse through most of the religious scriptures or famous doctrines, we shall find a curse that has changed the course of the story. We are always told not to trouble our parents because if they curse us, we are doomed. Curses can single handedly change your fate and over-ride your fate and stars. Hence do not: Deliberately harass your parents Harm or injure animals Cause disrespect to elderly people


The complete opposite theory applies to blessings. It is said that a single powerful blessing can burn away thousands of bad karmas. The best source for blessings are your parents and elders. However, blessings have to be from the heart and not artificial or induced by money.


The power of prayer can rescue you from the mouth of death. It is said that the word of God is more powerful than a thousand injections and medicines. Science has now discovered that prayer healing has tangible healing effects on hospitalised patients. A strong prayer from someone who loves you can change the course of your life and take away all your miseries.


So we can see that though astrology defines our fate patterns, there are forces stronger than it which can change our lives for the better or worse. We only need to believe.

Prayers are known to work wonders

Lets Go

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Friday, March 03, 2006

The Duck

"Always behave like a duck - keep calm and unruffled on the surface but paddle like the devil underneath."

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Narcee Monjee here I come

"Enough is Enough"- Says MON
Well thats is!
Goal is:
9 apapers to clear for previous Sem
3 For backlog last year
and one MAJOR project( Mostly on M&A)

I know i know
BUt i had some reasons

Monday, February 27, 2006


My un-vented angst is troubling me
It’s like a punishment
A third grade fail is punished
Every time there is spelling mistake
Write again
You have failed in Hindi
Whack ! Whack!
Repeat the paper!
Now its life
U have failed AGAIN
Repeat this class
But there is no-one to teach you
You keep failing
Keep failing and burning inside
U know u are repeating the class
But you just don’t know how to pass
You try and you fail
Try and fail
Try and fail

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Lonely Lady #17

- written by Neil Diamond, Vince Charles, and King Erisson
- Sung By Neil Diamond!!

Lonely lady one, she run away.
And number two, she do the same.
Lady number three walk out on me
like number four.
Who's keeping score?
Lady five, oh how she lied.
She made me pay some dues.
Six and seven, eight, nine, ten,
they really were bad news.
Oh no, they'd only break my heart.
That's how it seems.
And then I finally came upon
a lady seventeen.
Lonely lady number seventeen,
she stayed a while.
She had the style.
Lonely lady number seventeen,
she got to be with lonely me.
Lonely, lonely lady number seventeen, yeah.
Lonely lady!
Ladies eleven, twelve and thirteen,
they came and went.
"Baby," I still can hear them sayin'
"It's time to repent."
I turned around,
and there she was
with such a sweet surprise:
a lovin' face,
lovin' smile,
and love lights in her eyes.
Lonely lady number seventeen,
you stayed a while.
You had the style.
Lonely lady number seventeen,
come on and be
with lonely me
Oh no, when lady fourteen walked out,
that's when I screamed.
No luck with lady fifteen
or sweet sixteen.
But lonely lady number seventeen,
you stayed a while.
You had the style.
Lonely lady number seventeen,
come on an be
with lonely me.
Lonely, lonely lady
number seventeen, yeah!
Lonely lady!
She makes me feel so sociable

Saturday, February 25, 2006

ChAnGe Is PeRmAnEnt

It never stops
Whatever be the pace of your life
Whether someone lives or dies, laughs or cries.
It just Zhooks past everyone, faster than the speed of light.

Friday, February 24, 2006

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Cul De Sac

A cul-de-sac (originally in anatomy: French, literally "bottom of a sack" or "bottom of bag") or dead-end street is a street with only one inlet/outlet. A cul-de-sac is usually differentiated by having a turnaround area at its closed end. Both cul-de-sac and dead end are also used metaphorically to mean a line of thought or action which leads nowhere.
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Monday, February 20, 2006

Whats the oldest thing you remember?

Age: 3-4 Yrs Old
Location: Eatery of some school for very small kids
Situation: Post lunch of LKG ( Lower Kindergarten )

The windows in a distance showing cloudy sky
Not so well lit room
I open the paper wrapper of this candy ( Toffee ) and
A huge blue colored dustbin is in sight
I throw the Candy and am left with the wrapper in my hand!
Oh No!
I am found staring on the inside the deep duct-bin trying to locate the candy!
Goes the bell and the rest is washed away in the loud shrieks of children running out……

Among my oldest memories

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

What’s love got to do with it?

Feb 14 Isn’t Just Valentine’s Day, It’s Historic In Many Other Ways
ITS ABOUT STOLEN ARTICLES...(oops .. ok read on)

Reshmi R Dasgupta NEW DELHI 13 FEBRUARY

WHY think only of Cupid or Kamadev today? Plenty other events are linked to February 14. When you ring up your sweetheart or SMS, spare a thought for Alexander Graham Bell and Elisha Gray. Both invented the telephone at the same time, but independently.
On February 14, 1876, Gray applied to the patent office but Bell had done the needful two hours earlier. After much litigation (Bell’s device named in the patent did not work), Gray was awarded rights to the invention but most think Bell’s the one.
Valentine Day lesson 1: Timing is everything. If she brings out the animal in you on Valentine’s Day (before you check the credit card update on the computer, of course), shout, “Me Tarzan, you Jane”, as a salute to the movie Tarzan of the Apes, released on this day in 1918. And talking of laptops, here’s another factoid:IBM came into the world that day. In 1924, under its president Thomas Watson Sr, Computing Tabulating Recording (CTR) Corporation changed its name to International Business Machines Corporation.

VDay lesson 2: Act first, think (pad) later. If you’re keeping a wary eye out for Bajrang Dal activists as you choose a Valentine’s Day card, a bit of trivia may just change the focus of their activities. As they decry the dilution of Indian culture, remind them that it’s the day that Babur was born, way back in 1483. And mention that February 14 was also the day his Mughal ancestor Timur the Lame died — in 1405.
Valentine’s day: Just imagine... BUT don’t tell them that on that same day in 1929 the notorious Al Capone bumped off seven members of his rival’s gang in Chicago.
V-Day lesson 3: Distraction is the better part of valour. On a serious note, this was also the day in 1989 that Ayatollah Khomeini pronounced the fatwa on Salman Rushdie, on the same day that Union Carbide agreed to a $470-m pay-out to the victims of the Bhopal gas tragedy.
It’s also the day in 1975 that PG Wodehouse (whose inimitable Bertie Wooster was never lucky with his lady loves) died, aged 93. And on this day, just last year, the former Lebanese prime minister Rafik Hariri was assassinated.
V-Day lesson 4: Into every life (and love) a little rain must fall. But hey, today’s the day that New York mayor Michael Bloomberg can finally sing, “When I’m 64”. And it’s also the day in 1972 that John n’ Yoko began their week-long anchoring of the Mike Douglas Show.
And the final V-Day lesson: Imagine....

Monday, February 13, 2006

Walnut Chocolate Brownie ( to be eaten with Vanilla Ice Cream & More Chocolate sauce)

- 230gm sugar(one cup)

- Eggs -2

-Butter 100gm

- Sifted flour 85gm

Salt one fourth tsp

Vanilla essence half tea-spoon

- Chopped walnut one third cup

- Cocoa 6tbsp

- Baking powder 1/2tsp

Sift flour,salt and bp together.

Preheat oven to 350 fareghnite.

Beat eggs and sugar untill lemon coloured

Melt cooca and butter in a double boiler until it becomes paste

Take off heat .Cool slightly.

Add egg mixture & gradually fold in the sifted ingredient and add vanilla essence

Mix in the walnuts.

Grease a 20 cm square pan and dust with flour

Pour the cooca batter into it and bake for 30 minutes.

Cut into squares about 5cm when cool.


Saturday, February 11, 2006

Excerpts ( DONT SLEEP, Write)

  • There is nothing called Job Satisfaction, You have to satisfy the Job

  • Stephen R Covey says there are three Constants Change | Choice | Principle

  • R3=R1+R2( R1=Resources, R2=Relationships, R3= Results) With R1 Fixed, only way to increase R3 is to increase R2

  • Focus on the A’s in the “Report Card”. The F’s can be supported. Maxi-Utilise the A’s.

  • Get Rid of “Makhi (fly) Mentality” Don’t make a beeline for dirt.

  • You are as good as RIGHT NOW, Not as good as yesterday.

  • “An American(Huge Burly Guy)  and a Japanese( Short athletic) were among the attendees of a training program at a resort in Africa. While preparing for a early Jog , they suddenly notice a large Tiger running towards them.With both Scared to the core, The Japanese quickly starts to prepare for a sprint. The American in panic, queries the Japanese what will you achieve by running, the tiger will get you anyway, the Japanese replies Who is running from the tiger, what is important is that who can run faster among us” Be very clear of what your completion is.

  • Find and nurture Real qualities in self and others

  • Growth Path: Don’t do your Sub-ordinates Job, Do your boss’s Job so that he is free to do his Boss’s

  • If you “TRY To DO” you will keep trying to do. DO IT!

Sunday, February 05, 2006


That was a new word I learnt when we were studying history lessons,
The war
The blitzkrieg
The train journey I took to delhi, gave me a lot of time to myslef. I love train journeys( journeys in general).
While reading TOM PETER's , the way he was describing the way the world the businesses are moving and the environment around its changing so so fast, I was reminded of the word.Dizzying speed of life !!!
My week was pretty interesting motley of events
- An amazing expo
- A superb Metro Jounery in the Delhi metro( Its actually better than Singapore MRT, I fact its the worlds only four which is making a profit)
- I really feel proud to be and Indian
- Removing the social happenings..
- The week ended with The Great " RANG DE BASANTI"

Be a rebel!!
real good movie!!!!

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Cloud Burst

Krich Krich being eroded by a cloudbusrt
everything happens at the same time
Three training programs in succesion
Soft skills
COMP-Lex-ITI ( not to mention ITI means start, so complexty leads to a new start)
Bad throat
Bad cold
and travel
Oh Man
OK Delhi.. I am coming

Friday, January 27, 2006


Yes, That is a sound! KRICH KRICH!
It is an unpleasant sound, indefinable unpleasant sound.
Irritating!Sometimes the days are like that.
Not that there is sadness
Happiness exists.
But there is hotchpotch
Everything happening simultaneously
The Good, The Bad and the Sad!

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Be a Rebel

The Mark of Jagan-Nath , Puri

As I walked towards the so Famous temple, I found myself staring in awe at the throngs of people, mostly older, following blindly the Pundas ( Pundits/ self procliamed..messengers of the almighty).
As I was being pushed in the queue to enter the temple, I noticed

I kept looking at that for quite some time!

The next 45 odd minutes passed pretty quickly, while I was absorbing the magnanimity of the temple.
Ancient Rock
with sculptures of sexually explicit positions
The pantheon of Hindu Gods
The blind ritualistic behaviour of people
Offerings of Ghee and stuff to purify the sins
It went on..

I moved out.. took a local bus to rush to Bhuvaneshwar / airport to cath my 2 'oclock flite!
Surrounding by Oridya speaking local population, I was quite n amazement of being part of a country which is so so very diverse, not only in the surrounding but also in Language and cultures, and i am so lucky to be able to experiance so much in so less times.

Throughout the flight, my mind was so so stuck of how can I as an indivisual bring about a sea change in a country of such mammoth diversification.

How, By 2020, 80% of Us Indians will be just youth..between 18-35yrs of age.
How can I help move the Nation of such Diversification.

I got my ideas.
I am still carying them
I am confiedent of doing something for MY Country
I am so proud to be an Indian!!

Yes I am , We will ! AND WE CAN!!
the Dragons will be just watching!!

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Never Settle

Now seeeing the pic I am sure, that you are sure.. that I have not changed my job again.
The long awaited entry about my amazing, eventful and comprehensive trip to Chandipur came to end
In two days, I covered Bhubaneswar, Balasore, Chandipur, and Jaganath Temple at Puri!!!

The capital of Orissa, not exactly a very happening town yet, but high potential Due to the POSCo deal being finalized! Good place and right time i\to invest in real estate!!

Chandipur: the most amazing part of my Journey:
At this part of India, lies a beautiful beach, mostly protected by the govt...a beach wheer the water recedes to 5 Km's and you can wath on the sea

I was there for an hour walking nearly alone, with the cool breeze on my face and my 20$ MP3 player serving its best, playing santor by Rahul Sharma to roobaroo from Rang De Basanti..
(ya folk i was alone coz i was here for official work.)

Puri: The place puri, owning the famous Jagan-nath temple.. one of the Four Dhams of country. This was a very diferent experiance.
Though I was expecting to be entralled by the beauty of the great Temple.... it was quite a opposite experiance!!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Miles before I goto Shleep Eh!

BTDT.. No not yet

- Played in bylanes of Meerut
- Climbed Houses in the neighbourhood in delhi
- Driven Delhi-chandigarh and back
- The Ganga in Varanasi
- The Ganga at Haridwar
- RamJhula at Haridwar
- The Pooja at Rishikesh
- Sukhna lake at chandigarh for hours, huglocked
- Walked to Mohali from Chandigarh
- "The geri route of Chnadigarh" Of course
- Tutions @ 4 Am in Chandigarh on bikes!!
- Gurdaspur
- Chandigarh-Jaladhar-Batala-Gurdaspur( Pleanty of times)
- Local Bus in Jalandhar City.. roamed
- Movies in small time Batala
- Movies @ Gurdaspur HAHAHAH
- Amritsar ( Golden temple, Kesar ka dhaba, GNU, Short walks ,long talks in GNU)
- Pathankot ( Movies, hitch to and fro from gurdaspur)
- Sarna lake...
- Jammu
-Katra- Vaishno devi
- Mcleodganj
- Dalhousiee
- Delhi/Noida/Gurgaon
- Jaipur ( all day in ac cab to local bus)
- Kota( With Tiawanese/ Singaporeans)
- Bangalore ( Local bus in blore too)
- Hyderbad/ Secundrabad/ Hussain Sagar lake
- Chennai/ Sea side/ Local bus At 9 PM, no language support
- Mumbai , Of course
- Singapore, Musthafa, Walked orchard raod at midnight/ travelled in MRT/ the DHobi Ghat
- Poona ( pretty much from Camp to Kondhwa)
- Nasik
- Dhulia
- Baroda
- Ahemdabad
- Vapi
- Daman..
- Lots missed

What next????

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Daman, no dew and VAPI(s)

It was quite an impromptu program!
Akash was going to Vapi for work, and Daman is closeby and is famous for being a calm place to relax, not to miss out the fact that booze is cheaper!

Though considerd, but made my mind just @ 4Pm and via home to andheri stn and bang 830 pm i was @ Vapi.

It was a nice pre and post dinner party at the daman beach and we were back to the hotel, all expensives paid by Prominent ( Akash'z co.)
Real day started today, when I started to go around on my own..

Solitude @ its best

@ The pundit jee:
As I was waiting for the last "sawari" for the shared cab from Vapi to Daman, there walks in the panditjee. The (quite) old man dresses in his white "dhoti" and kurta. White hair, along with a long "white Bodi" and small white stubble. Two long yellow teeth bulging out over his face. Quite a site !

Within minutes after sitting in the cab, the woderfull cell fone rings!!--&&
And out from the pandit's Jhola comes out this neat NOKIA, and he is busy matching kudlis of some peepz in gujrati.

Not to mention there were 7 calls during the 15 min ride for different consulatations! Of course India has the fasted growing teledensity
{** off the track but china has mnore mobile fones tha total population of US}

@Ahmed bhai
The 2 hour cool breeze after the beer @ the sea side made my trip. It was great me with my complete self.

Sprinkled with the chat with Ahmed bhai, who while serving me the chaat started talking about the fact that he was from KANPUR and had a tiff with his mom/dad over a trivial issue and was here to "DO HIS OWN THING"

Not to miss out that he is 26 years old and is married..Married for the last 9 years!!
I did give him dome piece of my mind though, on how he can and should learn to read and write more.

"twas all in all a pretty good trip, and i missed my camera a lot!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2006


Yes, someone mentioned smitten, And i went into this swirl of thoughs .."When was it that I was smitten last?", Was that being smitten??
Or were all those so called crushes were even crushes? Or were they simply the a result od the deep-seated (animal Like) Human desire to bond/ to find a pairing partner?

Those desires triggered by the clocked hormones pumped, mixed with ( what is rhetorically called) Peer pressure!!??

Love?? The four letter word used to disguise anything and everything?!

The four letter word covering everything from motherly love, to fucking around !

If we see from the eyes of the Anthropologist ( Desmond Morris, see link on the caption ) the famous autjor of the Naked Ape Triology:

Where he wonderfully disects the human species like any other !! Not just on the physical front, no! But on the Physio-Social front.
He goes on amazingly to tell how and why "the naked ape" desires to bond, fulfills his sexual desires and how ( surprisingly) all this is linked to various other (remotely perceieved) behaviour patterns displaying territorial behaviour et-al.

Coming back to smitten again , i realise how it is a trivial perception of majority humans who love to
live on the superficial level.

How most of us completely fail to even comprehend the very purpose of our lives. Most of us go on to live their lives like billions others around the earth, in complete oblivion to their destiny!!
We are so much consumed by the physical urges desires, we completely forget, that there is much more to life.

Much more to be felt percieved, comprehended!!
SO cmon! get smitten fast, get consumed, get it over with quick!

Smitten eh! I'll get over it before i even know it>

Sunday, January 08, 2006

BaanGanga Festival / Pt. Hariprasad Chaurasia

A lifetime experiance!!
It was an amazing lifetime experiance, with the maestro with his flute and the beautiful water with lights shimmering, and white ducks wading through the water and trying to do the "Jugalbandi " with the Pandit

Two days of rhythm and raga at Banganga festival

Mumbai: Brass bells in the 23 temples surrounding the 12th century Banganga tank had begun to chime for the evening aarti, the conch shells soon joined in, the white ducks swum to one dark corner and waited. The stage was set for the 14th edition of the Banganga Festival in Walkeshwar, jointly organised by the Maharashtra Tourism Development Corporation (MTDC) and the Indian Heritage Society-Mumbai (IHS). Inaugurated by state governor S M Krishna and tourism minister Vijaysingh Mohite-Patil, the festival has lined up performances by artistes Padmavibhusan Pandit Hariprasad Chaurasia (flute) and Veena Sahasrabuddhe (vocals) over two days of rhythm and music. The crowd was still trickling in when Chaurasia, the performer of the first evening, began his rendition of the Raag Bhopali in a tribute to the historical site. An innovative sound technology that enables the distribution of sound without the use of loudspeakers, in use at the festival since 2005, made sure the people living in nearby buildings were not disturbed. “However, the organisers have made arrangements for interested Banganga residents to sit with the audience and watch the programme for free,’’ says Harishchandra Vyas, the 56-yearold priest of the centuriesold Balaji temple. Even so, families living in houses overlooking the tank, lined up in their balconies to take in the magical experience of the classical night. The sacred stone tank of Banganga, though away from the busy life of the city, is not new to visitors. Every year hundreds of pilgrims converge on the steps leading to the tank before Navratri and during Shivratri. Young students of the travel and tourism department of the Mumbai University, roped in to escort the guests on heritage walks around the bylanes of the area, explain that the tank came into being when Lord Rama stopped there on his way to Lanka. In an effort to find fresh water to worship a shivalinga made of sand (walluka ishawar), Rama shot an arrow (bana) into the ground letting out Bhogawati, an underground tributary of river Ganga. Proceeds from the two-day musical extravaganza will be used towards conservation of the Banganga tank and the surrounding temples.

Pandit Hariprasad Chaurasia regaled the audience with his soulful rendition of Raag Bhopali

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The Mask


Behind every personality, behind every mask, is a character that is your God-given uniqueness, says Barry Long Along, long time ago, when human beings were not so fixed in their physical bodies as they are today, there lived a man who made for himself a marvellous mask that could pull many faces. The man used to put on the mask and entertain himself by accosting people and watching their reactions. Sometimes the mask would be laughing, sometimes crying, sometimes grimacing and scowling. His victims were always shocked at the sight of such an extraordinary, unnatural, unfamiliar face — even when it was smiling. Whether they laughed or cried made no difference to him. All he wanted was the excitement of their reactions. He knew he was himself behind the mask. He knew he was the joker and that the joke was on them. At first, he’d pop out with the mask on a couple of times a day. Then, as he got used to the excitement and wanted more, he began wearing the mask the whole day. Finally, he saw no need to take it off at all and slept in it. For years, the man wandered through the land enjoying himself behind the mask. Then one day he awoke, feeling a feeling he’d never felt before — he felt lonely, cut-off, something missing. Jumping up in alarm he stepped out in front of a beautiful woman and immediately, he fell in love with her. But the woman screamed and ran away, shocked by the frightening, unfamiliar face. “Stop,” he cried, “It’s not me!” wrenching at the mask to tear it off. But it was him. The mask wouldn’t come off. It was stuck to his flesh. It had become his face. The man, through his fabulous mask, was the first person to enter this unhappy world. Time went by. No matter how hard he tried to tell everyone what a disaster he’d brought on himself, no one would believe him. No one was interested in listening anyway, because they’d all copied him. They’d all put on masks of their own — to get the new excitement of playing at being what they were not. Like him, they’d all become the mask. How the man eventually put a stop to the masquerade and returned to his joyous being, is the finale of the story. However, only when you, the readers, are free of unhappiness will the story truly come to an end. For you are the one in the mask. It’s your personality. Look in the bathroom mirror — that’s it. Watch the face you pull. Sometimes approving; often disapproving. You can’t really believe it’s you. So you look in every passing mirror, even shop windows, to reassure yourself and confirm it’s you. Sometimes, you even get the weird feeling of wanting to strip off the mask. This is not uncommon. It’s just that people don’t like to talk about it. The biggest load you’re carrying is your personality. You blame so many things for the feeling of heaviness — your work, your relationships, your problems. And yet, it’s your personality that has cut you off from your natural joy. The personality makes you emotional. It confuses your mind, lives off every kind of stimulus, good and bad. Do you recognise any of these symptoms in yourself? Then you’re ready to begin dismantling the personality. You have made the personality your protector. You have handed over much of your authority. So the personality jumps to your defence immediately when you feel hurt. Sometimes you wince at its violence and insensitivity. But then it’s your defender. So you meekly go along with its behaviour, and make excuses. The wily protector, given absolute power, becomes the absolute dictator. And you despair of ever being free. The truth is, you don’t need this protection. The personality does have its place and role. It makes a rotten master, but is a good servant. The servant must no longer be allowed to run your life. Behind every personality, behind every mask, is a character. Character is your God-given uniqueness. Character is what you have to return to more consciously in yourself — the character of your joyous being behind the personality. Everybody without exception has character. The personality so often obscures and deprives you of the pleasure of your character, but this lovable or admirable character appears when the personality is no longer active, when the frontal awareness is connected directly with the flame of innocence. The man is then seen in a different light; the unique character shines forth, and we feel pleased or privileged to be in their company.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

The Goal

Eliyahu M Goldratt.

I got this wonderful training program of Theory of Constraints.
A very interesting concept of how to achieve any Goal , using the tehory of Constarints

Though there was beautiful movie about how a production problem is suceesfully overcome, and most of the discussion was around using Concerto ( Critical Chain Project management),

We beautifully discussed the three laws which we consider during project management

Murphy's law ( )
"Anything That Can Possibly Go Wrong, Does"

Student Syndrome
refers to the phenomenon that many people will start to fully apply themselves to a task just in the wake of a deadline. This leads to wasting any buffers built into individual task duration estimates.
It was noted by Eliyahu M. Goldratt in his book, Critical Chain.
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It was the first one that really got me pretty interested!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

The Secret Of Happy Singh

This is more about the un-usual Sinusodical wave pattern of human mind.
Usually people do feel low and at times very HAPPY.

Rahul , mentioned over chat last week, "Why do I feel that you feel more sad?" The same opinion has been seconded by Ethan, quite a few times.
And while I was having a loong talk with My sis Richa Chhabra, trying find out what was challenging her so much that she was stressed out.

I was explaining her a wodersful technique from "Awaken the giant within, by Anthony Robbins" and realised the sooner i apply the same the better it would be

So here goes

You would have noticed that some people are happier than others, where as others crip and cry more, so to say they are more SAD

The very simple solution being that the HAPPIE People have LONGER HAPPY lists and SAD People HAve LONGER SAD lists


Enlist on a peice of paper:- what all things/ events/ situations/ environments make you happy

SAD list
Do the same as above and replace happy with sad

NOW its very simple

LONGER your happy lists.. more are the things that more you happy...implying you have a higher probability of being happy....

SIMPLE probability distribution...
CUT your SAD list and make you happy list longer

No wonder the simple advice.. find happiness in the small things .. as they occur more often and you will be happier...

---- and if none works.. call you MOM..( or someone who loves/ understand you... without any conditiond.. unconditional LOVE)
My momz great that way..