The Change Fundas

They say it is easy to connect the dots in retrospect Isn't it What happens when thou are cognizant about the changes while they are happening? Interesting it would be no... I recall studying differentiation and integration... Have you studied? It is strange,I would have never thought of this then... dy/dt... y representing the curve of the instance we were following... When t trends to zero..find the badly value of y. This just used to be a maths problem.. Simple..put formulae..method and get answer Now when I look at this..it has a different meaning. Imagine y represents your life..as it is happening...without any background music... Now when to make dt tend to zero..you are just slowing the rate of observation...observing each instance of life...as it happens... We are differentiating..each instance from the one before it... Ever thought like this.. How about integration...dy/dt..t from zero to now...life's events running from beginning to now.. Isn't thi...

Are you ready for the next level in Life? (image from internet)

I lay on the bed with clothes strewn. Crumpled and pushed in a bundle at the edge of the bed. The pilow over it Inteha- Jagjit's latest album playing on the winamp - which had been captured lately by newly received Spanish and Italian numbers. I was magically transported to my college hostel room. Manish would play his Marasim with the Yellow bulb glowing in his corner of the room and he would be there. Just there. As if... inside the title track.... Haath Choote hai toh rishtey nahin choota karta... It flashed back so vividly. The campus roads The hangouts.... The guys and the girls with whom we played what now seem like games only! The rides on tractor-backs loaded with wheat or sugarcane. Hot summers and " Tandoori Aloo Parathas with Lassi" at Bhola's Dhaba! The the drowsy lectures that entailed where would be busy playing BULL-COW on paper to keep us awake. The sights of fights during the exams and what followed.... My thoughts just flowed into the time that seem...

After a hectic travel week to Guj and weekend in Hyd, i was supposed to be shaken back to work; shaken back!. Supposed to be shaken out of the dull monotonous STILL-ness! STILL the feeling of a suspended particle does not go. I am here! Just! like monu so aptly puts it: "life in Third Gear; ur moving and just that is it; not to fast; not to slow! just there" I tried the "Mumbai Local rush hour treatment" to shake myself into life. Instead it pushed me further into "the viewer / observer" mode. Seeing life pass by. Not that i am not involved. I am too busy. But my mind seems to be working faster. Its like how Neo Feels like at in the last part, he is just fighting effortlesly! its STILL missing! STILL

Have ever Flunked/Failed? Where? In School? That "F" Grade in the report card? When that happened, what you needed to do? Repeat the class (or the subject) Right? Now have you ever noticed, somethings ; some people ; some situations ; some "TYPE" of people REPEAT in your life! Like you change your job but still have a typical type of colleague / boss/ subordinate again. Always get into same / similar problems. you change ur mate and end up getting a similar one again! You have been ;and life wants you to learn yourself; on your own. Life is this smart teacher that way. It does not show you and "F"; simply; silently and smartly makes you repeat! Its up to us, the faster we learn; the faster you graduate to the next level in life.

bomb blasts happened yesterday and today in blore and ahmdabad i returned a few days ago from a famili get-to/vacation from out of India, where we met this guy who works for 15 months and travels for the next 12 and repeats, coz that is what he lieks to do. He has ony done 34 countries till now. Just now i was talking to my local grocer while buying some lemons to try the new tequila, he was relating about the blasts he witnessed in Mulund and the macabre that was! i realised that human lives are such local phenomenon. Only due to cognitive behaviour, and advancements our IQz are better now. but still our lives and very trivial trivial enuff to be lost lost in making ourselves in line with expectations of the normal of the PEOPLE/norms/ of those patterns which have been found common and set to normalise things Not those spikes in patterns which have brought about all the changes in lives/technology and learnings It is human to live by and in by and in patterns did u know that our brain...

So many modes of lives and people. Amidst everything and nothing happening in my life i realized a little more. While India wakes up to the fact that becoming an engineer or a doctor is not just THE means to earning, being a cricketer or a TV artist are other alternate paths. Its easy to say that east moves west and west moves east; the sine-wave is so perennial! ( if this weird cycles that run in my head interest this read this ) I met my ex-boss yesterday and one of the offshoots of the convo brought back his ideology on the fore ground that you should be clear as to what you want in your life in the next 1-2-5-10 years! Only then you'll head there! While i was juggling to find out myself, weather i liked mumbai or delhi or chandigarh or europe or Japan as a place to settle down in my life after changing four jobs i still dont know if i like this one or what i reely wanna do in my lief! Junji was saying that day while telling my his dad in law in chandigarh fell reely ill and ...

I was telling Junji, talking to him yesterday; that how lifes meaning can change immidiately by change of perception of : our simple looking complex views ( and complex looking simple views as well) ( gosh!! why am i always liek this!!) He told me," राजन सर भी यही के रहे थे जब मई उन्हें मिला दिल्ली में " इट्स कॉल्ड the awakening! We laughed! But it remains!! If I, today, decide to chuck everything..... then...? this customer was telling me the other day , "now that i have put that 10000 sq feet land on rent, i have a constant income i have made my future safe" My colleague said, " वोह तो आप पिछली बरी भी कह रहे थे " I Smiled to self! It never ends.. does it? Why dont i stop worrying about making my fuuture safe, and just use the money i have to travel the world! Vsisit Japan, go Europe backpacking. And live by doing whatever oddjobs are needed to earn a living! Its a means to an end na?

Yes! The clay called life! What do you want to make of it?

yeah damn it

Why does he make such movies!! Grrrrrr.. otherwise nice day! I really want to travel the world!!! What am i doing here???

Do you believe in it? The what If loop! Ramifications......... is not just a 13 letter word, it is much much more

Its been like static. The need to define. What I want in my life partner. I think now, everyone i know and don't know has already questioned me about the woman of my life. I have some very interesting set of friends with different views. So many girls/women i know have their own versions of who women are and what they should be. Without going towards the works of Desmond Morris , I have my own opinion. Some may find this opinion sexist, but fact remains that a woman is not a man. Having said that, I will not go into much detail of what is manly work or womanly work. Lets not try and get into the nitty-gritty. Right from cleaning houses, cooking etc to riding a bike, or driving a train or a plane or even building huge empires (read companies in today's context). Both men and women can do all that. Though not all MEN and all WOMEN can do all. So many women i know just cannot maintain houses or cook or do all those "things" which are type-casted as their role. THIS is wh...

Its not just about Wayne Dyer's , " You will see it when you believe it "! Its everywhere around me or us. It was a common scene, around 11PM, I had just updated my RKD , and ~ 3 odd chat windows were open. I realised that it was more than 'very long' that i was staring in what was written as "SAMSUNG"! But i was not there, i was teletransported to a past incident. ~ circa 1996 i recall my often visited friend Rahul, he was sitting in front of his desktop, busy with Yahoo chatrooms open and with quite few chat windows open as well, briskly typing quirky remarks here and there. I used to think, how can he just go on chatting so so many unknowns! And here i was !! dunno what i wished, or he wished! And then it kept spilling, from all corners : the Vaio that i deeply desired, the guitar that reached my house( and is still lying there), where I live now, where all i have travlled, all my job changes, my movement to Mumbai, So much that I see around me. J...

““When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”” Paulo Coelho quotes Now Situation: A person wants ( deeply desires ) something and... yes.. the UNI-verse* CONS-pyres* to hell P * achieve !! And now the other person deeply desires / wants / wishes another thing, which is in complete conflict of "A person"'s Deep desire! ?? Pertinent question arose out of two situations: 1. When father living in one city had a sleepless night as he was deeply worried about something: Son #1( oblivious about father's worries) in city #2 also had sleepless night and had negative thoughts about father. Son# 2 ( also oblivious about father's worries) in City #3 all-so* could not Sleep. 2. Girl and boy are nearly seeing each other, but break off. Much later girl's brother (husband) and girl's SIL (wife) are concerned about girl as she is going through a rough patch! Now Husband and WIFE who know boy very well, persuade him. They de...

I have experianced them aplenty And I am sure you all have too.. The life around you is too fast but your mind is able to capture those tiny details and you are existing in both the domains. Music- fast but... your mind .. enjoying some of the slower paced moments of life. Traffic -Everyone Impatiently trying to get 'There' faster and you are calm in your sphere.. 'Your Sphere'! Do you live in ur Sphere? Your world defined by you! Or you live a life Defined by the World around? What are your parameters of life? Do you know?

After brief post on the super Bloggerz meet of "Zero-Seven" on my LIfe Blog ( here ), I was at the pvr catching up with Madhur B's Take in the Traffic Signal!! The emotes of some folks of my gang threw me into.. "emotions" IF a non human peeks at the behaviour of us Naked Apes , he would be queerly surprised!! We pay ( to watch movies/ Theatre/TV, etc) to emote ourselves. Seemingly a simple chemical reactions of Hormones( cheimcals , made out of Protiens that we eat...read pulses, fish etc...) produced by our perceptions of reality ( dependent on yet again our peception of reality)... Which Affects further our perception to reality and how the chemical reaction continues!! Oh No!! Did I interlink too much!! Well luckily me and N and lots to catch up and this wierd idiosyncrasy did not catch up!! And back my our dear Hiranandani, the newly Opened Breadtalk soothed it all!! ( will post more about dhhhhe Grrr88 Bhloggerz Meet !!)

This is a culmination of interesting electric pulses in my neurons[:))] Well you in life, right from roght now to to anytime in your life from Right now +/- anyother time/ Everything we perceive depends on What We Want. Every emotion is dependednt on what we want? What you want ....? Right now? Later? Tomorrow? Much Later? Before you die? You life...is dependent on how clear you mind is to the answers to these quiestions.. and weather you have them or not!! ...

WoW The title seems to be inetersting after the one below! Its an instersting Irony.. I usually complaint about not liking people who are too negative! But here , Today I find my OWN self in a complete negative spiral... and No.. Its not like the usual excuse, that i dunno why :P I do.. But that is where the interesting challenge comes in!! Knowing... Yeah the Simple Bold fails to Highlight the importance of the Pain and pleasure that Knowing can bring!! Knowledge can be power, but hey.. dont forget.. the same when viewed in light of " Ignorance is bliss"..its pretty different I am still trying to locate innovative ways to Re-boot my self... well am at a little loss!! "every decision is taken at the moment , with the knowledge in THAT moment... and the apprehension of the uncertain future combined with the current knowledge of the In-ability to completely Un-do past decisions is is way too much to bear at times" ..